Has Rebecca made the biggest mistake of her life?

[rebecca_in_blue]

I’ve been telling myself for a long time that since I’m doing something as scary as going to a foreign country by myself, then I should be able to handle something as scary as cutting my hair off. I’ve had long hair all my life, and I really like it, but I wanted to try short hair at least once before I died. Today I finally worked up the courage and went to the hair salon in the mall. I had my last haircut in 2005, and at least ten inches was coming off. Sara came with me for moral support.

I don’t know exactly when I realized that my short hair wasn’t going to look the way I’d hoped. Maybe it was when I saw Sara making that grimace behind me in the mirror, which she now swears she never did. In any case, I somehow managed to get back into my truck before I burst into tears. I cried hysterically the entire way home and probably would have crashed the truck if not for Sara, who kept repeating, "It looks good! You look nice! I’m telling you!" When we got home, I made her go inside and bring me my Harry Potter baseball cap before I would come in. I still haven’t taken it off, so no one else but Sara has seen my new haircut. I don’t want to think about what Mom and Adam will say when they do.

But I keep trying to tell myself that all is not lost. I’m still keeping my Harry Potter cap on, but my haircut gets a little less painful each time I look in the mirror. I was also smart enough to buy some makeup before I cut my hair, which should help me feel more feminine (my haircut is incredibly boyish-looking, which is probably the worst thing about it). Now I’ve just got to figure out how to wear makeup; that was one more part of becoming a woman that Rebecca ignored because she’s afraid of growing up. I’m also wearing a long dangly pair of Sara’s earrings, so I don’t feel quite so naked. My hair used to reach down past my bra strap. Now it’s not even past my ears. Now it’s sitting in a big braid in my purse, waiting to be mailed to Locks of Love, where I hope that it will be made into a wig for a sick child, so that at least one good thing comes out of this mess.

Comments

[babygoose85.livejournal.com]

Let me know when you decide to send your hair off. I have two ponytails to go, mine of 10 inches from May and one from my mom, not quite 7 but on their website they said they can sell that hair to offset the costs of production. When I cut my hair in May I tried not to cry, my hair was still at my bra-line when I cut it. That's how long it was when I cut it, down to my panties. If you need help with makeup I'd be more than happy to help you. I know how to put it on without putting that much on. It's more to accent features then to mask your face. I'm sure your hair looks fine, it just scary to make a big change like that. If you're worried about your hair looking too boyish you can always get it shaped by a different stylist to make it look more feminine.
Things have just been crazy in my life and I'd love to try to catch up with your sometime. I know you're probably busy with other things but if you plan on having a free afternoon sometime or wanna come by my house to visit, just let me know.

[rebecca-in-blue.livejournal.com]

I actually already sent my hair off, I did it just after I got it cut. It's super easy, you just put the hair in a plastic bag and then in an envelope and mail it to the address on their website. I would LOVE to see you before I leave (which is on Tuesday). I can probably get together with you sometime this weekend, if you want. My e-mail address is rcowie1@lsu.edu, or you can contact me through this journal. Of course you're not going to recognize me with all my hair gone...

[babygoose85.livejournal.com]

I feel terrible, I hate that livejournal doesn't tell you that someone responded to a comment you make. They send you an email which honestly is just terribly inconvenient when you make lots of comments. I don't know what time your flight leaves but I suppose it's far to late already. I wish I could of seen you, it's been a few years. I'll have a child already next time you're around. Please send a message to my page and I'll see it. Let me know when you'll be back in the states, if you come back sometime before March you can see me look like a whale! :o) I hope you the best. I never really told you but you're one of the only reasons I survived so long at St. Louis. I hated leaving if only because I felt like I was leaving my best friend behind. I know you'll do wonderful in France and I hope when you return you'll remember enough english to tell me off about something or other!

[makebeliever.livejournal.com]

I DID NOT GRIMACE!!!! You are blind or crazy. And it DID look good!!!

Making wigs for sick children is not a good thing, also.